Families

The beach, such a wonderful place where you can relax, sleep and just be with your family and friends. To kids its an even more fun adventure playground where you can find crabs and shells and pretty stones. I wish i could go back to being a kid in Angle sea, where i stood walking in the water and singing songs to myself while my family left me alone. Its no that i don't love my family, of course i do, i would do anything for them. I am just tired of being the one who has the responsibility.

My brother, I would give him an A* in being an idiot, but at the same time he can be stupidly caring. It just depends what day you get him on. He works as a builder and has a nice wage at the end of each week, which he blows on nothing and alcohol. He pays nothing to my mum in rent and then pretty much gets it back from her when he "borrows" money from her. This annoyes me as he is turning 22 this year and still has to borrow money because hes spent all of his. I am 19 years old and live off of a student budget, which in the summer is basically nothing. I really would like the extra tenna or so from my mum to help me go to the cinema or have a good night with the friends, but my mum doesn't pity me as she does my brother, as i have left her nest and have now been looking after myself since her mental breakdown back when i was 7. My dear brother however doesn't know how to grow up. And although i love him, i just wish he would give me a break for once and let me be the not responsible child for a change.

On the line of families i have met one just as messed up as mine. Jack my lovely boyfriend comes from divorced parents like myself, but i have the upper hand as i have no step siblings, whereas Jack has 3. His blood sister Emma is lovely and we really get on, and i was recently at Charlotte's (step), wedding. I didn't get to speak to her much as obviously she was running around catching up with everyone, but she seems lovely too. Jacks step brother David keeps himself to himself and Sarah i am yet to meet. His whole family i have met so far have been extremely nice to me and very welcoming. Especially Jack's mum Tracey. Who is one of the nicest people i have ever met. She is so welcoming and has gone out of her way to make sure i am fine and happy in her home. Her husband however is not one of my favourite people. Even though he is very nice to me, (i think this is because he has been warned), he is awful to Jack and Emma. He makes "jokes", which are hurtful and are not funny. He basically doesn't like Tracey having a life before him and because Emma and Jack are a life before him he hates them with a passion. I mean hate, I am not exaggerating, Hate is what i mean. I have been informed by various people, Glen's own daughter included, that he is better than he use to be. He has that, I don't care what anyone thinks attitude, which is fine, as long as you don't tell people what your thinking. The fact that he says everything he thinks i find extremely annoying, yes glen for the 100000000000000000th time i know you don't want Jack living here anymore, just stfu! The day is can tell Glen he is a **** I will be extremely happy.

I miss home, i miss being comfortable in my own house and being able to eat what i want when i want and not feeling uncomfortable or like I'm in the way. I just don't like it, and i don't like having everything done for me. Tracey and Jan (Jack;s step mum), they do everything for everyone, and i feel awkward. In my house someone cooks and then someone else washes up. Usually me or my mum. And i clean all the animals and do my own washing and hoover my own room. People doing it all for me makes me feel useless and like I'm in the way, i dislike it and hate feeling this way.