Christmas

I have to talk about this as i think i have bored my friends senseless with it, but i suppose writing it down will obviously be a big help.
Jack and I got together two weeks before the Christmas holiday at uni, so we were about to have three weeks apart. As we had both just got out of long relationships, i suggested that for the three weeks we could perhaps go on a break so that when we got back to uni we could start our relationship properly. Jack didnt want that, so he convinced me to stay together even over christmas. I has just got out of a two year relationship, so i was very confused with how i was feeling and was worried that Jack was just a rebound or something and really didnt want him to be that as i liked him alot. So we agreed to be together, even make it facebook oficial, (as we all know how important that is now!), and we were getting along happily. 

We had to do the awkward swapping of the stuff with the ex's, which i did the first saturday home. Then Jack did his with lets call her L, on the monday, where she tried to kiss him and then later got drunk and slept in his bed. So okay, we got off to a rocky start. After christmas day Jack asked me if he could go skiing, which he had bought before he split with L, but she refused to not go, and he was losing out on £600. So i didnt want to say no, as how could i do that, only being with him for a few short weeks, and barely together really, tell him he cannot go on holiday. We argued about it, as i was worried about him and L as they would have to share a room. I know i am a fricking idiot i should have said no and told him to not be such an idiot. But me being me thought well hes obviously not interested if he wants to be with her, so okay go then. I said that if anything happened between them, then that its okay, as we would sort it out when he go back. (I know, idiot). 

Then the next day, i was at a house party, quite drunk may i add, and low and behold i recieve a text suggesting that we break up, and that he is an idiot and he understands if i hate him. So after alot of swearing at my brother and his friend about how men are... well you know, I sucked it up and phoned te idiot.

I called him an idiot as i reallt didnt understand what was happening, i had told him to have fun skiing, and basically sent him condoms to sleep with his ex. I was being an absolute twat and he didnt seem to notice. So this conversation made things worse, as i agreed that over the next two weeks we could both do as we wish and when we got back it would all be good. ( I should be slapped for all woman kind i know, im such an idiot). So Jack being shocked and v happy as he gets to have his cake and eat it went skiing and did what he did. On new years eve,after a long week of me being in london with my friends and me ebing drunk for all of it, seriously, didnt sober up from when he technically dumped me until the following week. So on enw years eve i got a text from Jack with a kiss and saying he missed me. So total mind fuck i know. I was already packing my stuff to go back to uni to get away from my ex and all of that shizz that was going down, and then i have him texting me that and then going to sleep with his ex. w.t.f.

So i got back to uni on my own as my house was empty and then Sinead joined me the next day, and during her arrival i noticed that i had missed my time of the month, oh great so not only had i been dumped i might also be preganant with his fricking child. Sinead was all up for ringing and yelling and going total ginger bad ass on him, I was more crying in the corner as being such a dick.

So it came to the night that Jack arrived back at uni, and i got v drunk. Knowing i wasnt pregnant, SCORE!, and happily enjoying my friends and thier madness. But they let me walk home alone. And i bump into Beth, who is friends with the Boys of Myrddin 5 (Jacks house), so we decied to go and see whos in. So there me all drunk and soo not sexy banging on Jacks door at 2am, after he had not slept for 36 hours. Oh yeah that was me, and what did i do, yell and be very angry. I was hurt and i wanted him to hurt, so what do i do? I lie and tell him i slept with 3 people, technically i slept with them. we just didnt have sex. They all tired, but i stopped as me being foolish didnt want to because i liked Jack so much. IDIOT!
So after all this we worked things out, 6 months later i told him the truth about me not sleeping with people, which he was pissed about, as i lied. But i was hurt and then felt stupid for not sleeping with them, as he slept with L, So why should i be the idiot who didnt? 

No im not allowed to talk about Christmas as Jack thinks its the biggest mistake of his life, and i know he means it. Even though he sounds bad here, he isnt in reality. We finally had a massive fight about it again, and he finally told me why he did it all and why he was an idiot. And it kinda makes sense, and i agree with why he did what he did and i realise i should have said no. So seriosuly, if you have the chance to just say no, then do. Becuase it will save alot of heartache and pain.
Six months on and we are happier than ever, and we have made our Anniversary the night i went and yelled at him for getting me pregnant. Such a good memory, and then it erases christmas. x